Tears and laughter

In my younger days many times i wish death to strike on me due to frustrations. Tears flows on my cheek, but after all the emotions have subsided and the feeling is normal again, those who were around me are thrilled to the loudness of my laughter, ha ha ha ha ha ha oh what a joy to see them laught.

I noticed as i become older when i cry, icry alone but when i laught many wants to join the joy in my laughter ha ha ha ha ha ha. Lately almost 8 years ago i fall in love to a 26 year old but she left after more than three months of loving. I cant stop the tears from flowing, i really cry silently. I noticed that thou am really sad because my love left me and yet it seems am enjoying the tears and the crying.

At the time am already 57 and am crying because my girl whom i love left. Ha ha ha ha ha me aged 57 has fallen in love for the second time as if am a young man ha ha ha ha oh how wonderfull is the feeling am experiencing. I even look at the mirror to see how the tears flow and i make faces ha ha ha ha oh what a wonderfull moment ha ha ha ha.

Life is full of tears and laughter and you must learn to enjoy it. Others just suddenly end their life. Oh what a pity. Just beacause certain events does not goes his/her way everything will be put put to an end. If suicide is commited nothing is gain but choosing to continue living and let
whatever will come next, then life becomes exciting because you know not what will come next its full of suspense.

Yes life is full of suspense, its really exciting ha ha ha ha ha and i come to enjoy it. Ilearn from bad things that i had done and also learn from the good things mi had accomplished. Ha ha ha ha me falling in love at age 57 only to cry later on ha ha ha ha oh what a joy it is to live with tears and laughter, with all the suspense and excitement. Death will come and am not in a hurry ha ha ha ha ha i learn to manage and am managing my old age ha ha ha ha come and enjoy withe me with all the tears and laughter and suspense in life............................